I wrote this from the heart. ( It's kind of long but I'd LOVE some feedback on it!)?

A.J. Gonzales · Yahoo User

An IQ is not based on how much information is stored in your brain, but how many thoughts you can process at one time. I, in no way boasting, have one that would confuse you on one word. I am so blessed, im cursed. In no way, do I have much pride at all. The only thing I have to even be grateful for 'is' my mind. Most people would do anything to have this 'gift' and I am more than willing to get rid of it. In order to boast one must, first, have pride. Much pride and no pride look almost identical, but can easily be proven either way. A person with much pride a certain amount of pressure will "snap". The more pride a person has, the louder the snap will be. A person with no pride will not break under any circumstance. Everyone is born into pride, so, if it is at all possible to have no pride, then one would have had to have been broken at one point in their life. Even a person with very little pride can bottle things up until they pop, but a person who has none, cant. When one's soul is broken; that is his thoughts and emotions, there grudging pile of problems. Though, in a sense, the soul is still there, a broken glass holds no water; the vessel in obsolete and is good for nothing. Once again, no pride. It is not prideful to argue, but what you argue about. If a person argues over what was said about him, then he fights to right himself, but he who fights over false information, argues to right the other. For from pride is the development of another. With all pettiness aside, who would want a gift that causes grief. Seriously. If a person gives you a pair of platinum prescription sunglasses, would you still wear them if you're allergic to platinum? What if you're ears would be pricked and bleed the whole time you have them on? What if you were in the dark for 12 hours of the day? Same to my analyzation here. It just causes pain. A little extreme for an analogy, but still works. Ignorance is bliss only to those who aren't. Ignorance is hell to those who don't know better. People do feat what they don't understand. When people look at something they cannot possibly figure out, their first inclination is to shy away from it, but when it doesn't immediately resolve itself, then it's a blotch in that person's communicable routine. Since they shied away at first glance, and it didn't go away, they try to come up with a reason or reasons why they did to justify a natural and forgivable response. Making things more difficult and more complex for everything affected by this person and/or persons environment. This is done, once again, out of pride. In order to justify an embarrassing action against an unknown element, they look for quick and quazi-reasonable excuses and explanations for this mere act of stupidity. This doesn't have to be factual by any means; it just has to make sense to this individuals psyche. Many possibilities can and will stem from this mentality, but is all irrelevant now. When falsified information gets passed to others and in taken as literal truth, then it's a lie, it doesn't even have to be taken by the other, but, once spoken, it is a false witness. Defending ones self is prideful, but stopping a lie once it's spoken to deliver and kind of facts is beneficial to those outside of him. "love," by some people's interpretation; "power" by mine. Not empowering my self, but giving power to those around me. Knowledge is power. Just remember having no pride is perceived exactly like having much pride, so don't lean on your own understanding and "never" judge a book by it's cover. A person may look at something and perceive whatever they wish, but never teach it. As for as other problems needing reasoned out: a person claiming themselves as Christian is an important deal. One, it means "little Christ" or "Christ-like"; two, the person that is saying they're Christian is actually appropriating themselves as or like unto Christ. You use the title, but act wickedly are doing nothing short of blaspheming Jesus and the Father in him. These same people curse their own brother for what he says about the Bible has, also, blasphemed the Spirit, too. That is more wicked than Paganism. Surrounded by these kind of Christians who are bent to kill has caused a great harm in the kingdom of heaven. If I wasn't a believer I wouldn't want this by any means. I am far from being Christ-like but I will call myself a believer. I am NOT Christian, yet. From what I "see" not much is. I want nothing to do with them. The bible I read is all I enjoy. So far, how I read it and what I know about it is evil and blasphemous and all I do is read out loud what I find. Nothing added the Bible is a living word and grows with you and I'm being shown that I wrong. I want nothing to do with this mentality. This organization has countless times shown me through illegal hustles, and corrupted leadership, and the fake being rewarded, and radically misconstrued scripture and not to mention how they deal with students. I want nothing to do with this place. Give me a testimony day (or time to give mine) and I will not "be" a false witness, at least, to myself. I have learned, on the other hand, that I am devoid of understanding of the Holy Spirit. The only thing that this place has done to let me know what I have that's wrong with me, is that bit of information. I have learned that I am or have been an apostate before I got here. Basically an apostate is a disciple of Christ who is a false prophet without knowing that they are, because there is no Holy Spirit in them to show them the truth. But at the same time, I wont act like something that I don't know is real. So as far as it goes, I am in a cult and no one knows it, but me. Ha! But I'm crazy! P.S.How can you record a man's relationship with God on paper? There is no such thing.