My true life story what do you think can you tell what kind of person I am by reading this sorry if it's long

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If you don’t know now you know Life & times of Ronnie AlstonWhen I was 6 years old I seen my pops get shot who knew that a be the last time I’ll see him alive That’s when my moms said I begin to change. I never used to get into trouble in school until late October 1996 who ever said life’s a bitch man were they right By the time I was thirteen I was a whole new person my uncles were in and out of prison and it looks like I’m next in line but little do they know em not going out like that em gona make it big time you’ll see I here stories about he was a real gangster he didn’t sell drugs or nothing but he was a street legend anyone I met who knew my father looks at me like they seen a ghost they say I look like him I’ll rather have my own identity I heard 2pac say he’d rather die like a man than live like a coward that’s so true if you cant find something to live for you better find something to die for I got something to live for I remember the day June 2006 days before my birth day I found out my uncle committed suicide here we go again I feel like gods trying to tell me something life’s to short the only thing that comes to a sleeping man is dreams follow yours I figured out what I wanted to be they said what I said a actor there’s people that’s been doing it there whole life’s how’d they get so lucky there is something else I wanted to be they said what I said a rapper don’t do that they say but I don’t care for me music is a way to express myself I used to keep everything inside but I don’t anymore I say what’s on my mind even if it gets me in trouble some people hates it because em sarcastic but that’s me I don’t know why em like that but em glad I am I doubt there’s another person out there like me not that em special or anything but I’m unique these streets is so raw you saying the wrong thing or walking down the wrong block ca get you killed but I been through so much it’s nothing to me em G’d out if you seen what I seen and been through what I been through you would be too I never knew what I was gona be but I knew I was gona be a entertainer sometimes my brightest gift can be my biggest flaw like I said em real sarcastic they say you don’t have to like your family but you have to love em sometimes it’s hard to do that I find myself thinking what if like what if my father and my uncle were still here and I realized that my pain made me stronger everything I been through made me everything I am everything happens for a reason so I understand I didn’t before but I do now but you know what I still don’t understand is girls I mean boys suppose to be the players but damn was I wrong I have girl friends and they school me ta the game some of them don’t even care they a use you like it was meant ta be like one dude I know his girl uses him and he know she don’t give a damn about him that’s {Censored!} up but em not mad at em because were even worse at times I got friends that a hit it an quite it and not give a damn like for real I be thinking like you need someone ta keep you from going insane someone like a best friend lucky for me I got two I wont give names but they know who they are they say a man should never cry who ever said that must not be a man because real men cry yes they do I remember a girl in my 6th grade class I would tease her everyday she even cried sometimes but I didn’t care her name was Latongia we went to P.S 34 together so I met this girl in high school she looks familiar she’s so beautiful her names Latongia she says she went to P.S 34 she remembers me damn I {Censored!} up I know it and she knows it too how could I try to talk to her when I treated her so bad there’s no way she’ll forget I guess that goes to show never treat someone like that you never know what a happen damn I feel like em on a the Maury show you know the before and after specials one of my uncles doing 10 years in prison for armed robbery he has 6 more years to go he has a son who is about 5 years old he don’t even know who his father is I mean really not visits to the prison I mean he can’t even spend time with him when I have a child em a be there for them no matter what every time I look around it motivates me to make something of myself no one person can change the world but if we all collectively come together and the world will change I’m a intellectual I love knowledge like I love air I just wana learn the generation now a days don’t understand they say oh your black ass hell some of the most intelligent leaders in the world African American em not gona change myself because that’s not who I am if I change myself how can I know who I am if I change myself to please everyone in my presence Malcolm X didn’t change neither did Martin Luther King what if J.F.K changed who he is and said I don’t like black people just because he wanted to be like everyone else I don’t even care when people say oh you wana be a actor or whatever you a never make it or try and guide me in other directions so what’s there excuse for being stuck in the hood if you have no critics you’ll likely have no success Malcolm X taught me that